Im sure you’re tired of me, but Im like that handle on Instagram, that is watching everyone’s post, secretly noticing everything and sitting there silently in one corner, not commenting and not hitting the like button yet fully aware of whats happening when and where what is happening! 😀
Ladies and Gentlemen, Wish you a very Happy and Blessed New year too! In this space, there is little or no worry that things might change as time ticks by, because this is my space, my world that I created, so time has a completely different concept here all together.
2018 already. Wow that just sounds so exotic. Even more so because it reminds me of 2009 when I started this blog. I was clearing filling a void. For months I would write my blog and didn’t feel the need to tell anyone I had this avenue to pour down my thoughts. I am not sure if it was Muthu or Farhad who are both very dear friends of mine from college, sneakily discovered that I wrote a blog and had kept it a secret for months prior to being discovered. I suppose I was scared to tell the whole world that I felt way to much, thought way too much and I analysed the minutest details of everyday events. In short I felt scared to announce to the world, that a weird human has arrived and she was not feeling the slightest worry about admitting this to everyone. Last week, my brother; Raqhav passed a comment on me and said Riddhika, you are scared of everything, what is it that you aren’t scared of. Currently, I am holding on to that thought and thinking over it. Ill tell you how I feel about it once I have figured it out.
A few months ago, my dearest Shruti said to me Riddh, ‘How do you do it? How do you act like a complete gangster and open your heart out to the world? How do you share the deepest thoughts that you have with this world? Deep thoughts are sometimes so dark. How do you talk yourself into believing that its ok to talk to everyone about everything?’ She went onto appreciate my courage and how strong she thought I was. However, she got me thinking too. Raqhav and Shruti’s contradicting statements made me realise how you could be a hero to one and a complete zero to the other! Im sure its the story of everyone’s life.Joking. I secretly know Raqhav loves me the most! He better! I am pretty sure I will get messages from my readers telling me how this resonates with them. I shall repeat myself and say; story of everyone’s life!
However,I still asked myself if I honestly thought I overshare what is floating in my mind. Do I have no filter? When I asked myself this question I didn’t get no as an answer an I thoughtI may get. I simply write about what most of us feel, but are to scared to acknowledge, because society wants us to believe that hiding dirt under the carpet makes the place look cleaner. What they don’t teach us in school and college is that acknowledging feelings and talking about the realities of life is what makes us evolve and grow. Where should one go to learn such stuff? How should we change the way we are tuned to think and help our society grow? When will we Young adults learn that we need to get up and start thinking about how to feed our soul the nutrition it craves. Nurturing the soul is the most important need of the hour.
I was blessed enough to begin the year on a very positive note; I attended an evening of meditation and introspection with Sadhguru in Dubai amongst countless number of his followers and believers. He spoke so well. Im in awe of him. How does he just get it? How does he knows what I am feeling? How does he know what I needed answers to. The energy in that room that day when he visited Dubai for his session was just something else. He had everyone glued to their seats with all ears for over 4 hours. He discussed how we lived in the most advanced and comfortable times and how privileged we were as a society to actually live in such times. He kept asking us if we had any doubts about that; and we all replied no. Yet it is in these times that we have started taking our privileges for granted and stopped being grateful and thankful for how wonderful everything really is. Sadhguru reminded us how important and happy one should be to simply wake up every morning. Each morning had to be welcomed with a smile; death is always the destination; but why die today and way before our time. Whether we wanted to die or not; we would die regardless; may as well live a little today and that too with gratitude. Ive never thought about death like that; but when he spoke about it so bluntly I realised how true his words rung with me.
On January 1st, 2018 Nitesh asked me what my resolution is for the coming year. I replied with the customary; Lose weight; Get fit because I genuinely believe a fit body equals a fit mind. However, I’ll add some more resolutions to that list. Live a little more each day; wake up grateful simply to see another morning, smile more and definitely write more, be weird and continue to find innovative ways to feed my soul and encourage you to feed yours! Live well, live holistically and love with all our heart and soul.
For the rest of you who are reading, I look forward to hearing how you are planning to be grateful and how you plan to feed your soul in the coming year!
Just putting it out there… I am running my second 10 kms road run this weekend. Am I prepared? No. Am I scared? yes. Does that mean I will give up and not run? No. I run to feed my soul and face my fear. Even if I finish this run in 2 hours and 59 minutes, my fear will not overpower and bully my mind!
Love and Grace,